Using Practical Lights to Convey Mood

first_imgHere are a few tips and tricks for using practical lighting to establish mood and set the tone for your next shoot.Top image via Netflix.Choosing the right lights for your shoot can be difficult. You have to consider the space you’ve chosen to shoot in, the size of your crew, and the budget you’re working with. While there are a million different ways to properly expose your image and light your subjects, there are a few helpful tricks that can up the value of your shot while saving time and money. A recent trend among filmmakers and DPs in television and movies has been to employ camera lights that serve the story while also aesthetically lighting the actors.Mixing ColorsImage via Netflix.One of the most recent examples of this technique comes from the popular Netflix series, Master of None. In the last episode of season two, the two central characters find themselves isolated inside an apartment as the tension builds in a classic “will they or won’t they” fashion. The lighting for this scene involves simple blue and red light bulbs on opposite ends of the frame. This might seem like an obvious choice for representing passion and loneliness, but the lights are also backlighting the subject, almost creating a vignette, while composing one of the most romantic and memorable shots in recent memory.There are a few things to consider before choosing the color and type of light to use on the subjects on camera. You need to complement your actors’ skin tones and wardrobe with the appropriate lighting. Colorists can grade a project to a certain extent, but when it comes to complementary lighting on set, the results will speak for themselves. Just know that blue and orange, red and green, red and blue, and blue and yellow all complement each other, making your subjects pop.One of the best-known DPs who adheres to this method is Benoit Debie, who has often used two opposing colored lights or practicals to light his actors on camera. His work often consists of heavy neon usage, so if you’re curious about mixing crazy colors in your shot, check out some of his work.Using Neon LightsImage via A24.A director who keeps coming back to using neon is Nicolas Winding Refn. The majority of his movies take place in the dark underbelly of society, whether that includes cannibalistic supermodels or underground boxing rings. These themes rely on practical neon lights to set the tone. Neon lights are a cheap and visually appealing solution in these situations. Consider location too when you’re scouting for your production; you can’t put a price on a lighting setup already waiting for you on set.Image via Radius TWC.One of the masters of on-set practicals was Stanley Kubrick. Whether it was lighting characters with candles, christmas lights, or single-source lamps, the man was a master of setting ominous tones through lighting.The recent John Wick films also make excellent use of creative lighting by employing practical neon (and LED) lighting and lens flares. Given the subject matter is usually very dark and intense, this decision to feature reds, blues, purples, and white lights makes for some pretty outstanding shots.Image via Lionsgate.Practical LightingFor a more in-depth look at practical lighting in general, Ugly McGregor dives into how to light an interior night scene with only lamps and candles in this quick video tutorial.Practical lights can serve as purely aesthetic choices. If you decide to make use of practical colored lights for your next shoot, think about the colors, the emotion the scene calls for, and how the colors can complement the mood you want.Have you used practical lights in the past? Let us know in the comments.last_img read more

NBA changes All-Star Game format; captains will pick teams

first_imgStephen Curry of the Golden State Warriors jumps for a rebound with Paul Millsap #4 of the Atlanta Hawks during 2017 NBA All-Star Game at Smoothie King Center on February 19, 2017 in New Orleans, Louisiana. NOTE TO USER: User expressly acknowledges and agrees that, by downloading and/or using this photograph, user is consenting to the terms and conditions of the Getty Images License Agreement. Ronald Martinez/Getty Images/AFPNEW YORK — The NBA is scrapping the East vs. West format for its All-Star Game and will have captains pick teams this season.The league said Tuesday the two starters with the highest fan vote totals from each conference will choose teams from the pool of players who were voted as starters and reserves.ADVERTISEMENT LATEST STORIES Brace for potentially devastating typhoon approaching PH – NDRRMC Fire hits houses in Mandaluyong City BSP sees higher prices in November, but expects stronger peso, low rice costs to put up fight View comments Frontrow holds fun run to raise funds for young cancer patients  Nonong Araneta re-elected as PFF president Typhoon Kammuri accelerates, gains strength en route to PH Fire hits houses in Mandaluyong Citycenter_img The 10 starters will continue to be chosen by a combination of fan, player and media balloting, with the coaches from each conference then selecting the 14 reserves. The captains will then draft their teams at an undetermined time — making certain that those chosen starters are split up so they remain starters.The teams will play for charity. They will select either a Los Angeles-area or national organization for donations to go. Read Next Don’t miss out on the latest news and information. LOOK: Loisa Andalio, Ronnie Alonte unwind in Amanpulo for 3rd anniversary Archers still seeking old form The change will begin with this season’s game in Los Angeles on Feb. 18.Players and league officials have been eager to inject new interest in the often defense-absent game, and they decided to act after another dull affair last February in New Orleans.FEATURED STORIESSPORTSWATCH: Drones light up sky in final leg of SEA Games torch runSPORTSSEA Games: Philippines picks up 1st win in men’s water poloSPORTSMalditas save PH from shutout“I’m thrilled with what the players and the league have done to improve the All-Star Game, which has been a priority for all of us,” National Basketball Players Association president Chris Paul of the Houston Rockets said in a statement. “We’re looking forward to putting on an entertaining show in LA.”The sides worked closely — with Charlotte owner Michael Jordan, chairman of the league’s Labor Relations Committee, heavily involved in the conversations — and chose a format that has been used by the NFL and NHL for what will be the first NBA All-Star Game that doesn’t pit the Eastern Conference against the Western Conference. Trending Articles PLAY LIST 00:50Trending Articles00:50Trending Articles00:59Sports venues to be ready in time for SEA Games01:37Protesters burn down Iran consulate in Najaf01:47Panelo casts doubts on Robredo’s drug war ‘discoveries’01:29Police teams find crossbows, bows in HK university01:35Panelo suggests discounted SEA Games tickets for students02:49Robredo: True leaders perform well despite having ‘uninspiring’ boss02:42PH underwater hockey team aims to make waves in SEA Games MOST READlast_img read more

17 days agoArsenal stopper Mustafi reveals he played injured in Liverpool thrashing

first_imgArsenal stopper Mustafi reveals he played injured in Liverpool thrashingby Freddie Taylor17 days agoSend to a friendShare the loveShkodran Mustafi has revealed he played through injury for Arsenal last season.The German endured a terrible night in the 5-1 loss to Liverpool in December 2018, but he has revealed he wasn’t fit enough to play the game.”I had missed three weeks injured and then went into the game without training with the team because the coach needed me,” he said. “At half-time it was 4-1, I had a few bad moments and injured myself again. “Afterwards, I got a lot of negative comments from Arsenal fans on Instagram and Twitter, and articles were written in which I was harshly criticised.” About the authorFreddie TaylorShare the loveHave your saylast_img read more

OSU football recruits Towering receiver flying under the radar

When discussing college recruiting, experts often say, “the sky’s the limit” about a specific recruit’s potential. Ohio State recruit Tyrone Williams might have already reached the sky. The towering 6-foot-7-inch, 215-pound wide receiver from East Cleveland, Ohio, brings a height element to the OSU receiving core that Buckeye fans don’t see often. “He is unlike any other receiver prospect that has come into the program during the Jim Tressel era,” said Kevin Noon, managing editor of Buckeyegrove.com. Williams had 39 catches for 685 yards and 14 touchdowns as a senior and was second team All-State for Shaw High School. He was the No. 34 ranked wideout in the class of 2010 according to ESPN 150. He was also a letterman in basketball and track.  Steve Helwagen of Bucknuts.com said Williams has a lot of potential at the college level because of his size and build.  “There aren’t a lot of Randy Moss-type players. That is going to be able to create some mismatches for Ohio State in the red zone where they can throw him a jump ball,” Helwagen said. “We saw that in the Fiesta Bowl two years ago where Todd Boeckman threw the ball to Terrelle Pryor, and Texas had no defense for it.” Williams, who was also recruited by West Virginia, Cincinnati and Illinois, might have had other suitors if not for a knee injury that cut his junior season short.  “The injury his junior year left a little bit of skepticism out there,” Helwagen said. “I think some schools wanted to see what he did at the start of his senior year, but when Ohio State offered, it was an open and shut deal.” Noon thinks that Williams can probably benefit from redshirting this upcoming season. “He can learn the system, get into a collegiate strength and conditioning program, and work a little bit on honing his skills,” Noon said.  Helwagen said that if Williams doesn’t redshirt, he could make an impact due to his height advantage.  “He’s a weapon that Ohio State doesn’t have currently,” Helwagen said. “If he shows them that he can make plays right away in the fall, he’ll bring that element where he’ll be able to out jump corners because of his height.” Outside of the obvious height advantage, Williams brings great body control, a huge wingspan and a power forward’s frame to the Buckeyes.  “He is deceptively fast and has the ability to go get the ball,” Noon said. “He is able to give quarterbacks a huge target.” Ohio State clearly has a recruit in Williams, who has the potential to be a great receiver for the Buckeyes if he is able to shake off the effects of his injury and grow into the position. Noon said, “If he is able to live up to the billing, Ohio State got an absolute steal in Tyrone Williams.” read more

Tottenham hope to have Son back against Watford

first_imgEnglish side have had to endure a tough period following their second exit from a cup competition in the space of four days.The London side is set to have a relief as Son Heung-Min is believed to likely return for their midweek clash with Watford.Son has missed the last three games while being on international duty with South Korea at the Asian Cup, but their surprise quarter-final exit to Qatar means he is back in the fold earlier than expected.“On Sunday we were with him on the training ground in the morning,” boss Mauricio Pochettino SportBT.“He’s so tired, he played three games. Very tough games.“Of course not too much energy on Sunday, but we hope he’ll be available and ready on Wednesday to help the team.”What to expect from Watford V Arsenal? Taimoor Khan – September 8, 2019 Arsenal are set to take on Watford this weekend and the game is definitely going to be quite a peculiar contest between two sides…Pochettino says he has moved on from the defeats and has shifted his focus on a top four finish in the Premier league as well as advancing in the UEFA champions league.“Of course I am disappointed because, after Thursday and today again, out of two competitions – you feel disappointed. You can’t feel anything different,” Pochettino said.“But now we have to be positive. We are still in two competitions, in a good position in the Premier League and the Champions League is a massive motivation for the whole club. We have to be strong.“Now the realistic targets are trying to be in the top four, try and be close to Manchester City and Liverpool and reduce the gap.“To be a contender is always difficult for us. (Top four) is realistic.“Another is to try and beat (Borussia) Dortmund and be in the next round of the Champions League. That is tough.”last_img read more

Dipnet Fishery Significantly Down From Previous Years

first_imgKenai City Manager Paul Ostrander: “The dipnet fishery was significantly down from previous years. Our gross revenue for the year was $375,000 that compares to a gross revenue of last year of $547,000.”  The DF&G announced the early closure to the dipnet fishery in order to meet the sustainable escapement goal of 700,000 to 1.2 million late-run sockeye salmon in the Kenai River–a goal officials say “may not be met without a reduction in harvest of this stock.” Additional restrictions on commercial and sport fisheries have also being implemented. According to Ostrander the city had budgeted the usage fees for the season at $578,000: “We missed that by a significant amount, almost $200,000. We’ll start working internally and administratively to figure out what we need to do.”  center_img The 2018 Kenai Personal Use Fishery opened at 6:00 a.m. on July 10 and closed at 12:01 a.m., on July 30. The fishery closed two days early per emergency order from the Department of Fish and Game. Facebook0TwitterEmailPrintFriendly分享The Kenai City Council took a look back at the 2018 personal use dipnet fishery season at their council meeting on August 1.last_img read more

Rate Bases Jump Again for Food Network HGTV Magazines

first_img“Very rarely do we explicitly copy or interpret a show onto the pages of the magazine,” John Loughlin, EVP and general manager of Hearst Magazines, told FOLIO:’s supplement Audience Development (AD) in February 2012. “The magazines that we create in partnership out of television activity have the look, feel and essence of the television brand but in no way are they imitations of it. They break new ground and broaden the experience for the consumer.”See Also: On the Tube and On the Page: Television-Branded Publications HGTV Magazine first went to market with a test issue in October 2011—at the time, the publication had a rate base of just 450,000. Similarly, Food Network Magazine, which launched its first official issue in 2009 and was the first joint venture between Hearst and Scripps, has seen similar success, boasting its seventh rate base bump by the summer of 2012, with its 11th to come in 2014.“It’s one thing to tune in once a week and say ‘I like this show’ but it’s another thing to say I like this brand enough that I will spend $18, which is our introductory price on Food Network Magazine,” Loughlin told AD.Partnering with a television network has its perks when it comes to promotion. HGTV Magazine generated 25,000 orders after 15-second and 30-second commercials aired on the channel. Promotional messages about the publications also appear on the bottom of the screen during television programs. According to Loughlin, the overall viewing size of the audience, instead of ratings, is what really maters.“There is not a hugely tight correlation between day-to-day, week-to-week or period-to-period ratings and the circulation of the magazine,” Loughin said to AD. “Consumers who are watching television proactively tune in on a Tuesday, might not on a Wednesday and come back to it Saturday—it’s really about the consumer’s discretionary time. Consumers order a magazine or pay for a magazine and that’s the key differentiator, the fact that they’re paying for it. It also comes once a month, and because it doesn’t have the same kind of shelf life that an episode of Iron Chef or Oprah’s former daily television show, studies have shown consumers come back multiple times. The reality is there isn’t a tight correlation between ratings and circulation.”Stay updated on the latest FOLIO: news, follow us on Facebook & Twitter! Hearst’s TV-tied brands are seeing their rate bases jump again.The company announced Tuesday that Food Network Magazine will see its 11th consecutive rate base increase since officially launching in 2009, with sister title HGTV Magazine increasing its rate base for the third time since launching its first official issue in June 2012.With the July/August 2013 issue, HGTV will raise its rate base to 800,000, and the title will increase again to 1 million with the January/February 2014 issue. Big sister Food Network Magazine will increase to 1.55 million with its July/August 2013 issue and will raise its rate base twice in 2014—to 1.6 million with the January/February issue, and another bump to 1.65 million with the July/August edition.Hearst publishes these titles in a partnership with Scripps Interactive Networks—the HGTV and Food Network channels are distributed by Scripps to almost 100 million households.last_img read more

September 2 2003 CENTURY PLANT This cluster of C

first_imgSeptember 2, 2003CENTURY PLANT: This cluster of Century Plants [Agave Americanan] grows behind the Ceramics Apse. One of the plants has begun to grow its flower stalk. This first photo was taken on 5/1 of this year. [Photo & text: sa] >>left>> There is a remarkable difference in size on 5/6. >>right>> This photo was taken on 5/12. [Photo & text: sa] >>left>> 5/22 We did not measure the size but the push of this plants effort is amazing. >>right>> On 5/28 little branches have sprouted at the top portion of the stalk. [Photo & text: sa] >>left>> On 6/9 buds have grown on the branches and >>right>> on 6/27 the beautiful flowers are visited by busy bees. [Photo & text: sa] The stalk of this plant turns into a very light, hollow wood, with solid branches and large seedpods on those branches. It has been observed that this kind of stalk can be used for a version of the aborigin instrument digereedoo. This report will continue. [Photo & text: sa]last_img read more

Our Flag Reflections on Flag Day

first_img The American Flag represents over 240 years of freedom.  However, that freedom has come at a heavy cost, from the Revolution to the Global War on Terrorism. As a nation, we have sacrificed much to protect the freedoms we hold dear and to promote democracy in every corner of the world.Everyday across the United States of America, we proudly fly the flag to remember those who have given the ultimate sacrifice to preserve our great heritage of freedom and opportunity. When we swear allegiance to our flag it is not mere tradition but a solemn and sacred vow to those heroes who have shed their blood in exchange for our freedom. It is a promise that their sacrifice was not in vain.The flag is a symbol of freedom and hope. Hope, that in spite of the struggles we may face, our children will have a bright future, free from oppression and full of promise and liberty.As we approach Flag Day, June 14, I would like to share some guidelines for showing the proper respect to our flag, the symbol or our great nation.No disrespect should be shown to the flag of the United States of America; the flag should not be dipped to any person or thing. Regimental colors, state flags, and organization or institutional flags are to be dipped as a mark of honor.When displaying the American flag, the U.S. flag is always the first flag raised and the last to be lowered. No other flag should be hoisted above it, and no other flags may be larger.During the Pledge of Allegiance and National Anthem, citizens should stand and face the flag, remove any headdress and either salute or cross their chest with their right hand.The American flag should fly only from sunrise to sunset; however, the flag may be displayed for 24 hours or more if it is properly illuminated through the night hours.The American flag should never touch the ground nor should it be written or drawn on, disfigured or defiled in any way.When a flag is worn or tattered and can no longer serve as a symbol for our country, it should be destroyed by burning in a dignified manner. Many American Legion posts conduct dignified burning ceremonies, often on Flag Day. If you have such a flag, I encourage you to take it to your local post and let it be retired with the respect it deserves.Remember that we say the pledge, not to a piece of cloth, but to the ideals that it represents, “to the Republic for which it stands, one Nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.”I hope you will join me in reminding others to give our flag the honor it is due, not just this Flag Day, but every day of the year. Categories: Kahle News 14Jun Our Flag, Reflections on Flag Daylast_img read more

UK broadcasters the BBC and ITV have secured right

first_imgUK broadcasters the BBC and ITV have secured rights the 2018 and 2022 football World Cups.The rights package gives the broadcasters TV, online and radio rights to the tournaments. The deal continues a long-held tradition in the UK whereby the two largest broadcasters share the World Cup rights. The pair have both shown the last fourteen tournaments.The BBC said that three-quarters of the British population tuned in to the last World Cup. The announcement was made in the same week that the 2014 tournament is starting in Brazil.BBC director of sport, Barbara Slater, said: ” It is fantastic news that the pinnacle event in world football will continue to be available free of charge for everyone in the UK.last_img read more

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entrance and boilers working.Have no fear pastor Samuel Rodriguez Jr. has been openly critical of Trump’s plan to build a southern wall and deport with force the roughly 10 million undocumented immigrants currently living in the United States "Its impossible" Rodriguez says "Youd have to have a Gestapo sort of apparatus in the vein of World War II putting people not on trains but airplanes” But in the meeting Bramnick said Trump suggested a clear willingness to work with the Hispanic community While Trump did not say he would revisit any of his policies he signaled an openness to continue the conversation Bramnick said "We didnt get into specifics other than that he wants to work with us work with the Hispanic community Hispanic leadership on substantive policy regarding immigration" said Bramnick who leads the Hispanic Israel Leadership Coalition a subsidiary of the NHCLC and New Wine Ministries a 300-member congregation in Fort Lauderdale Televangelist Frank Amedia pastor of Touch Heaven Ministries and the Trump campaigns new "liason for Christian policy" arranged the meeting Bramnick says which lasted for about a half hour and then included time with Trumps son Eric During the discussion Bramnick said he shared NHCLCs immigration reform platform with Trump Unlike Trumps immigration proposalwhich calls for building a wall along the US-Mexico border and deporting millionsNHCLCs plan has five pillars One secure the borders through a federal certification process that does not specify a new wall Two provide current law-abiding undocumented immigrants to pursue a path to citizenship which would only be completed after all other current legal immigration applications have been processed Three grant guest worker visas for currently undocumented immigrants Four deport undocumented immigrants who are felons and serious misdemeanor offenders Five create an integration process for newly legalized undocumented individuals to assimilate into American society including learning English and American civics The group opposes Trump’s call to forcibly deport all undocumented immigrants now living in the country Since locking up the nomination Trump has continued to speak about his plans to build a wall on the southern border and force Mexico to pay for it in part by threatening to block private money transfers from the US to Mexico In his stump speeches he casts undocumented immigrants as criminal outlaws who threaten not just the American people but the legal frameworks of the country “Mr Trump has always been very clear on his position” said Hope Hicks a spokeswoman for the Trump campaign when asked if the meeting signaled any policy shift But the meeting fits into a larger Trump strategy of reaching out to recent opponents in an attempt to find common ground Bramnick says they also discussed the erosion of religious liberty and protection of Israel The five other pastors who also attended Bramnick says included televangelist Sid Roth Rick Joyner of Morning Star Ministries an Asian-American pastor a representative of the Cuban-American community in South Florida and the father of Colombine victim Rachel Scott This week Trump accepted an invitation to send a video message to the NHCLCs Latin Leaders Fest in Anaheim Clinton has also agreed to send a video message The event is a leadership conference for some 1200 attendees and includes Christian music performances and sessions on business education ministry and Israel The candidate videos will be shown Friday night These steps are only the beginning if Trump really wants to try to make amends Rodriguez the president of NHCLC hopes Trump will apologize to the Latino immigrant community for his "hurtful erroneous and dangerous statements" and he wants to know what Trumps actual immigration solution is beyond all his talk of a building a border wall and deporting millions “Latino evangelicals are more divided than white evangelicals on Trump" he warned An internal NHCLC poll of 120 Latino evangelical pastors and denominational heads taken in late Marchwhen Texas Sen Ted Cruz and Ohio Gov John Kasich were still runningshows Trump’s challenge Two thirds found more hope in the Republican party than the Democratic party and nearly as many voted for Mitt Romney in the 2012 election But at the time only 4% said theyd vote for Trump while nearly half said they would vote for Cruz and a quarter chose Kasich Clinton got about 15% of the vote The poll found that the top issue for these Latino evangelical leaders was the economy followed closely by immigration reform A third of participants also said they see themselves as independents most say their views reflect the Latino community more broadly and nearly all said they are eligible to vote in the election Bramnick says he plans to make an endorsement in the weeks ahead Rodriguez who had advised Rubio Bush and Cruz says he will not endorse a candidate from either party but his ultimate goal is to help protect the 11 million undocumented people in this country "I want to pass immigration reform" Rodriguez told TIME last month "I have to work with the political realities that we have" Additional reporting by Zeke J Miller Contact us at editors@timecomIDEAS xoJanecom is where women go to be their unabashed selves and where their unabashed selves are applauded When I was 22 I met my husband Pete I was immediately drawn to his quick wit his passion for life and his ability to do anything he set his mind to He seemed invincible In the years that followedwe would share many memorable experiences We spent our time together hiking and backpacking exploring foreign lands and daydreaming about the future In the midst of it all we exchanged wedding vows and welcomed two precious babies to the mix while vowing to never allow the expanding size of our family to interfere with our plans to seek adventure Along the way we developed a grandiose vision for our lives both independently and collectively and lived a life free of fear We believed that as long as we had each other all would be right with the world That is until one fateful day in December 2011 Pete had been feeling unwell for some time but naively believed it wasnt anything serious After all he was invincible While I was visiting family out of state with my mother and our children I received the call that changed my life forever Pete had been diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer He was 31 years old There is absolutely no way to give voice to exactly how I felt in that moment The easiest way to describe it would be to say the world stood still While everything around me continued to buzz with life my own had begun crumbling before me We started out strong and brave I was convinced God would save him and was unwilling to accept any other way But as the weeks and months progressed we realized claiming victory wasnt as easy as giving God an ultimatum With each chemo session each new set of scan results and each dose of pain medication we realized we were losing the battle On March 18 2013 the unthinkable happened when my husband closed the chapter on his earthly life leaving me a widow at 28 years old with two young children Leading up to his passing he had received hospice care in our home for five excruciating months during which I witnessed cancer strip him of every last human ability he possessed During that time I was forced to face the facts he was never invincible and neither was I Unfortunately the same is true for every one of us life is fleeting There is a distinct feeling of surrender laced with anger and sadness which envelops a person when they realize their life is out of their control It is a feeling I now know too well one that has continued to befriend me even still Fortunately when I have been unable to carry myself due to the weight of the burden of loss family and friends have come alongside me to bolster me up Before loss I didnt fully understand the necessity that is human relationship but now I know I would never have survived without it In the wake of my loss I felt bereft For years I felt I had a purpose that was bigger than my own vision for my life I was my husbands wife his lover his friend and in the final months of his life his caretaker During his battle with cancer each day had been lived with a newfound urgency When he was no longer present I struggled to identify my purpose and questioned every reality I had ever known I wondered who I was without him by my side Steeped in the pain of my loss each day felt weighted with the emotions of the day before and as they piled on top of one another the muck and mire of such intense feeling seemed too much to navigate on my own There were days I cried incessantly While other days I felt an overwhelming desire to tell everyone about what had happened to me to us I felt as though the word "widow" was etched into my forehead On those days I told my story so stoically oftentimes to absolute strangers that it made me wonder if they questioned its authenticity Even still there were days I escaped in an effort to connect with him I longed to revisit the places we enjoyed together While in those familiar places I felt at peace knowing I could cry uninhibited without feeling pressured to conform to societys made up grief timeline Slowly but surely I began making a concerted effort to confront my grief and loss and eventually it became more natural to move forward Still there is not a day that goes by that I do not look at my children and wonder "Why them why me" While the pain of loss remains so raw at this point there is no other way than to accept that it will always be this way There is absolutely no explanation and no justification for what has happened it simply is what it is Fortunately acceptance does not mean apathy Acceptance simply means my energies are better spent elsewhere I am proud to say that where I am now is a place of identifying the lessons learned through my trials recognizing the beauty in the day-to-day and expressing gratitude for the time I did have with my husband Through my loss I have become a stronger more impassioned woman who is slowly coming into myself recognizing my own needs and pursuing my own future As for our children they will continue to work through the loss of their father as will I but they will take their cues from me I must continually remind myself that they will mimic the way I grieve The last thing Pete would have wanted is for us to stop living which is why I have made a genuine effort to put one foot in front of the other no matter how intense the pain may be Because our youngest son was only 2 years old when Pete passed away I feel it is especially critical to speak of the sacred memories we shared while their daddy was with us in the flesh However I feel confident he is with us in spirit so I guess in that way he was invincible its just not the way I ever would have imagined Alysha StGermain wrote this article for xoJane Contact us at editors@timecom IDEAS TIME Ideas hosts the world’s leading voices providing commentary on events in news society and culture We welcome outside contributions Opinions expressed do not necessarily reflect the views of TIME editors "Donald Trump showed a tremendous understanding and concern for the undocumented immigrants.

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